Thoughts at 3.33am

Thoughts at 3.33am

Poor Baby Mac got to sit on iron board

Together he keeps me accompany

To arm myself to the battle field at 10.15am

Less than 7 hours to go

Less sleep

Less energy

But, a brain with a wave of information

I hope I had done enough

I want this to be the limit

I want this to be worth

Who knows what happened later?

Will the history repeated?

God, let me get through this

I regretted for my laziness

I regretted for my procrastination

I regretted for sleeping too much

I regretted for not doing well for the 8 weeks 

Will I be punished?

Will I be lucky?

Will I be given one last chance?

Hormones are dancing 

Biological clock needs asylum

Brain need to be preserved

For no loss of memory

No loss of information

So, that no loss of life in the future

My bed is calling

My blanket is spreading

My pillow is stacking

My plushie is waving (creepy)

I'm hallucinating

Baby Mac is drying

Eli, live with it

With the path you take

With the mountain you climb

With the sea you swim

With the jungle you venture

With the track you run

With the passion in your heart

With the world you live in

With the air you breathe

With the lives you will deal

Time won't stop ticking

World won't stop spinning 

Lives won't stop coming

Death won't stop going

God won't stop giving up

I won't stop keeping it up

This is post #444

Love

Wishes to all my friends!

To all my friends, with love

Love

h.o.m.e

Home is really sweet!

This is what my dog did when I just got down my car to welcome me home!

Oh yeah, his name is Dao Dao

Dao Dao (cantonese) = Bean/Peanuts (English)

When he do that, he wants me to rub his sexy belly

The main purpose I am home:

S.t.u.d.y!

I'm still stuck in the same book

=.= 

Other than just studying, here is all my L.O.V.E!!

My bed and babies!

My giraffe a.k.a Lut is back with me from KL 

Miss my dearie Nemo!

So huggable

Nothing more perfect and warm than home itself

Too comfortable that somehow my study progress is too slow

But, I enjoy being pampered and spoiled again!

Didn't get this in KL

Love

Before holidays..

I didn't know whether it was my problem or something else

I had a sense of unsatisfactory towards exam this time

It did not feel like how exams suppose to be

Set in the bubbles of my mind, exams were supposed to be hectic & brain exhaustion

It had a very "laggy" feel this time

Either it was because I was lazy or it was because Medicine & Community Health were the combination

Honestly I dislike having a break in the middle of the exam separating OBA paper & the KFQ

It gave a feeling that the time ticked so fast

Dislike the schedule as well, a very big gap in between theory paper & OSCE, which was good in the sense of more time to revise

Whereas, it was just a matter of waiting too long just for short OSCE

Well, putting aside the unusual feeling I had, of course it gave me a something new

Just an additional of 1 minute in our OSCE for every station

With near 30 stations during pre clinical year, there were only less than 10 stations in clinical excluding PPD

Speaking about Community Health a.k.a JKM

9 furious stations, 2 rest stations, 2 relieving PPD station

It was totally stunted by JKM station when more than half of the stations had 2 pages of questions plus calculations

Initially I was feeling really upset for not being able to finish my sentence in most my answers

I found out then that most people facing the same problems

PPD station this time was such a big relief for me, no standardized patient, only watching a video in the laptop

That was such a grateful BONUS, as I always have no idea how our PPD was assessed

Having Internal Medicine on the last day and the last group to go through was a torture

We just spent so much time waiting but we couldn't concentrate on what we were reading

I always had PPD-phobia & I wanted to get rid of it so badly

Guess no other cure other than placing me to start at the station next to PPD 

Which mean, while my group was rotating in the circuit of the OSCE, PPD station was my last

*Great*

Surprisingly, we had more than enough time for Medicine paper even though we were given 5 minutes each station as well

What made it boring was 4 rest stations in between 5 Medicine stations

Alternating questions paper and resting time wasn't a good idea at all

In conclusion, we were the last batch to be breaking free

Soaring, flying, jumping, hopping!

Taking this chance to wish a great holidays ahead to all my coursemates out there!

Happy Holidays!

Happy Deepavali!

Till we meet again

Love

When I said nothing at all

All done with my written paper for Internal Medicine and Community Health!

6 days to go before OSCE for both postings, as well

Need a good rest, hoping to have wonderful lala land awaiting me..

It was said "You don't wish to sleep because your dream has turn into reality"

Mine, goes the other way round

"I wish to sleep because my dream hasn't turn into reality"

That is why sleeping is my Love

It is because I love sleeping so much that I neglect my intelligence

I didn't get myself Clinical Medicine by Kumar & Clark, the baby version

After 8 weeks of Medicine and 8 weeks of Hawaii posting, I still didn't turn smart to get one for myself

Until I found out that, I am totally in need of it during the study week

Out of nowhere I turn out a bit smarter than usual, I borrowed from Xu Vin

Thanks, Vin!

Love

OSPE/OSCE & Eli

Yeah, this is a late post

I guess it was because I am TOTALLY SPEECHLESS

In my memory, OSPE was something we learned in lab

Practical, meet the expert session (MES)

Reality check!

From GIT to Reproductive system

Most of the slides & pictures were from lecture notes

What the *dot dot dot*

The only fun part was when we changed stations every 4 minutes

Seriously, I really think it was FUN

Even though I didn't get the answer

I love walking around when the bell rings

*wink*

Clinical !!

Upper limb -Tone, Power, Reflexs

*tendon hammer time*

As I expected, I did not get the brachial reflexes

*but I pretended to be serious*

History taking on GIT case

What is colicky pain?

At this moment, it made me realized that I did not know colicky pain well

I couldn't exactly answer that

PPD station

Gosh, that guy was so hard to be console, man!

His prejudice was so STRONG

For some moment, felt like want to stomp on him

LOL

Luckily it was Dr. Heikal as my observer / examiner

He showed me a 'thumb up' after I finished

Thank you, Dr!

Conclusion : This was the fun-nest clinical & PPD stations I ever had... A bit more prepared and relaxed...

This is all about my exam reviews for now...

Hope I don't have to slit in another one..

*praying hard not to resit any paper*

I really wish 203 out of 203 of us will go posting together this June

Till then...

xoxo

Review : Neuroscience & Eli

F.A.T.E

Who can fight it? =/

Is going to be a long review with lots of curse and complains

Before exam

Slept at 1.30am, couldn't stand the saturated brain anymore

With a hint of headache

Alarm set : 4.15am

ZzZzZzzzzZZZZzzzzzzzZZ

Woke up

Check my cellphone

7.05am!!

When did the alarm rang?!

Habituation

Exam

*totally no confidence*

I dare to say this was my 1st time stepping into the exam hall with nothing in my mind

OBA

Anatomy, anatomy, anatomy

*tikam tembak, any cara la*

There are lots of questions that I seems to know

A, B, C, D, E...

I cancelled out 3 answers which definitely wrong

50-50 towards the correct answer

*this one la*

and I tell myself not to look back

Cause' whenever I look back & change the answer

The previous answer will the correct one!

*go back check - WRONG..*

OK nevermind, wrong 1 only...

*check 2nd question - WRONG..*

Don't want check oledi la...

'Qi shi ren'

EMI

More choices of answer.. A to H or J

Some I know lor...

MOST I TIKAM LOR....

*haven't see essay questions also know will die already*

Muscles of the neck

*I tak sempat baca*

CNS Infections

Sedative & Opioids

Cranial nerves nuclei

Functional part of the brain

*is it? the one with basal ganglia, amyglada, hippocampus*

etc...(I forgot)

Essay

Essay 1

A gal that tends to fall forward or backwards. Couldn't erect the trunk. Coordination of limbs are normal... Diagnosed with cerebellar disease kot..*something like that*

Parts of the affected cerebellum

Name ALL nuclei in cerebellum

*ALL? so many ah? sei lo.. anyway, I end up putting in DEFG*

Describe anatomical & functional divisions of cerebellum

*flocu-- fluco-- flo-- *dunno what* --nodular*

*lots of spelling mistakes here*

Arterial blood supply to cerebellum

*dang! forgot liao.. PICA?*

Essay 2

Based on the same situation above

DESCRIBE 2 tests for coordination of the limbs

*limbs? what limbs? which one?*

The coordination is normal. She still can play a piano & sing.

EXPLAIN the process above affect which cortical areas & tract. EXPLAIN the function of the cortical area & the tract...

(8 MARKS)

*play piano & sing at the same time?*

*play piano & then only sing?*

*play piano without looking at the pieces?*

*play piano while looking at the pieces?*

*sing looking at lyrics or listening to words in radio?*

*Or just randomly sing her own creative song?*

All this run through my mind because of the vague situations

*poof... 8 marks bu jian liao (gone)*

Essay 3

Parkinson's disease

Describe the gross morphology of Parkinson's disease

*what a gross question?*

*Honestly, I am not sure whether I didn't read about it or I really never see the gross morphology before*

*I even don't know how to CREATE an answer*

Mind you, 5 MARKS!

Describe histopathological changes seen in Parkinson's disease

5 MARKS

*banyakla 5 marks..nothing to write also*

*write mampus, didn't write mampus also*

*simply create.. SO HARD TO CREATE*

10 marks bye bye

Essay 4

Give this Parkinson's disease patient Levodopa

Mechanism of levodopa

*still ok.. This is my prediction of the module*

*at least there are still something predictable*

Levadopa + carbidopa. What can be alleviate from this combination of drugs?

6 MARKS!!!!

*I tak tau I answer correct or not*

*at least I understand this questions*

For a moment in the hall, I hope there is electrical breakdown so that the paper is cancelled.

Wish doesn't come true

Oh well

Back to the same word --> F.A.T.E

Number 13 still lucky

Number 101, what luck also dun have

Conclusion of the day : I am mentally prepared to reseat this paper.. I am very positive towards it and didn't take this as a stress.

What done is done...

Takkan you want me to cry outside the hall la...

P.S All of us were so SAD & EMO & DESPERATE when the exam ends, suddenly here come the KTDI Persiap representative telling us when to daftar for our hostel in KTDI, when is our elementary clinic & PPD camp...

I was like --> NO HOPE

Coming up next week!

Review : OSPE/OSCE & Eli

xoxo

Review : Reproductive & Eli

Thanks God it is not Friday

Crossing my fingers that 13 is not bad luck after all

Here comes the module that I hardly finish my revision

OBA

Starting with anatomy as usual

Which I am not very good at it

*KIV-ed some questions*

EMI

This is always the uncertain part of my life

Histological features of testicular carcinoma

Hormonal contraception

Muscles of the pelvis

Infections

*1st time I see the answers are so long in EMI*

*It took me quite long to figure out the options*

Essay

*Elaine jie jie was right.. PREGNANCY*

Essay 1

Positive urine pregnancy test.

Name the hormone that give +ve result in the test

The role of the hormone

Name other 2 hormones that is increase and their roles

15th week of pregnancy, the 5 years old son has varicella

Pathogenesis of varicella in pregnant mother

Complications of varicella (mother & foetus)

*for a moment, I couldn't really connect what is Varicella*

*My mind was thinking about Herpes Simplex Virus.. oops!*

*I almost fall asleep in the exam hall a few times when I am doing the questions*

*Brain juice drying out*

Essay 2

*at this moment I am still quite satisfied as I didn't see any anatomy part of the essay*

DANG!

Screening, the foetus is a MALE (XY)

Describe the development of p***s

*Public blog, trying not to make it sound adult in here.. hehe XD jk*

*damn! EMBRYOLOGY.. apa pun tak tau =.=" *

*crap the answer..*

I think if the normal development is exactly what I wrote, I guess I am creating an alien here

*still can laugh... wakakaka*

35th week, premature rupture of the membrane..

Mechanism of oxytocin

*kinda expected*

Describe the uterine contraction caused by oxytocin

*Sound vague to me, I hope what I answered is right*

Another indication of oxytocin

*wink*

Essay 3

Breastfeeding

Explain milk secretion & excretion during breastfeeding

*5 marks wooi..*

*Got so many things to write mieh?*

Found painless mass on the breast ---> Fibrocystic changes

Describe MORPHOLOGICAL changes in fibrocystic changes of the breast

*morphology... another weakness of mine*

*5 marks*

Quite a number of people hand in their papers before the end of the exam

I bet this was so far the okay-iest for everyone

I still can't decide

I still think I am 'pun thong sui' (half a bucket of water :P) in every paper

As if like none of the questions I could answer it full without doubt

Conclusion : My seat number 13 not so bad luck after all.. Maybe it is not Friday 13 =)

P.s Consider lucky 13. Usually the side row will be call to hand in their paper last.. We made it 1st today so that I can run back to my room earlier for another revision. ZT paper in the afternoon

Advertisement time!

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I love it... It was c.u.t.e!!! XD

To read, click here

I am not going to do any review for ZT paper

Out of the hall after 25 minutes of exam

Which is not in the rules

But, who cares?

Coming soon (in less than 24 hours!)

Review : Neuroscience & Eli

*a nerve wrecking review!*

Stay tuned

xoxo

Review : Endocrine & Eli

Doing Endocrine, but my bladder doesn't work well today

I felt the urge to go to the toilet when I started my OBA

End up forgetting about it

It was so annoying

OBA

20 questions

Lots of symptoms of the hormone irregularities

Most asking for reasons

*Well expected that I like it cz no anatomy*

*silly mistakes here & there*

EMI

Histology, cells

Lots of hormone

Anti-diabetic drugs

Hypercalcemia

*hmm... quite hard to choose which one is the best*

*lack of knowledge*

Every hormone seems related & it was so confusing

Essay

*jeng jeng jeng*

Essay 1

ACROMEGALY

Growth hormone

*feedback*

*metabolic functions*

*effects & complications* (5 marks *dang*)

Essay 2

Addison's disease

*somehow I didn't see it coming*

*hypocortisolism* c00l word

Mechanism of hyperpigmentation in relation with Addison's disease

*seriously, I know what is that, but I never really find out WHY*

*being creative and sound PRO, I crap something*

*creativity*

Other features/effects of Addison's disease or complications?

*OK, I have memory loss here*

*I didn't remember the question & I lagi tak tahu what I answered*

*Means, it was something that I did not really know the answers*

Bacterial infection in that guy, was prescribed with Hydrocortisone for LIFE

Describe the dose given to this patient

*Actually, I didn't excatly know what did it means*

*Anyone can teach / tell me?*

State another drug for this unlucky fella

*simply put one*

Here comes the reason of why we choose the other drug

*damn*

Essay 3

Grave's Disease

*like what the disease called, memang masuk 'grave'*

Mechanism / Pathogenesis of GD

*agak-agak la*

Important steps tertinggal!!

*gali graves*

Mechanism of Methimazole

*happy*

*i ada baca =)*

Side Effetcs of Methimazole

*^___^*

Patient becomes pregnant, change to PTU --> Explain the reason

*FETAL THYROID!!!*

Essay 3 was the 1st essay I did.. I only know the pharmaco part though

*everytime also like that haiz.. half bucket of water*

Conclusion : Yesterday was a challenging day, today is a confusing day, tomorrow continues..

P.S A few minutes before the exam ended, the urge of visiting t.o.i.l.e.t annoyed me again

Coming up next!

REVIEW : REPRODUCTIVE & ELI

*stay tune with me, same time tomorrow, at http://luvqiwen.blogspot.com/*

xoxo

Review : GIT & Eli

I think I brought the wrong brain to the exam hall today

*sigh*

OBA (One Best Answer)

*flip, flip*

Gosh! Why so many anatomy?

*sure die*

*tikam tikam*

So many histological characteristics..

*ok ok*

EMI (Extended Matching Items)

Anatomy *phew*

Laxatives

Chronic Liver Disease *no memories =(*

etc..

Essay

*kua kua kua*

Read 1st trigger -> Ulcerative colitis *I know! =)

*scroll down*

Questions : Regarding colon *S.H.I.T!!!!*

Anatomy of colon, location & relation to posterior abdominal wall, blood supply!

*blink blink, rub eyes*

Like that, I don't know.. I only know UC..

*mampus la 1st question*

Essay 2

Gastrinoma in the head of pancreas

*wait! what is gastrinoma har?*

*think hard*

OooOooo.. I know...

Why stetorrhea? *still boleh la~*

Regulation of the pancreatic juice in this case

*trying hard to relate gastrinoma & prancreatic juice*

*write craps*

*half of it habis liao~*

Pharmacology

Omeprazole -PPI

Mechanism of action

*so angry I couldn't recall a single thg*

*salah semua!*

Side Effects

*blank!*

Essay 3

Chronic alcoholic guy

Liver failure *list effects and complications*

*1st confident answer*

Pathogenesis of liver cirrhosis

*sei liao~ how already har?*

*tembak tembak*

Essay 4

My prediction! Hepatitis!

BUT!!!

Not Hepatitis B leh~

HEPATITIS A oo...

*aiyak*

Pathogenesis of Hepatitis A

*simply create lo, agak-agak*

Immune response

*I know something there, but I forgot their function*

*geram-nyer*

DRAW A DIAGRAM *alamak* of serology profile and clinical features

*I apa pun tak tau*

Draw something that looks pro

But, WRONG!

Conclusion : Bring the wrong brain in but I have only 1 brain.. *kia si lang*

xoxo

OMG attacks!

Lots of thing happened in one day
Yeah - TODAY
Kind of like not so me..
Haha XD

For GIT assessment today
I forgot to sign the attendance slip
I filled it up & I realized I forgot to pen down my signature
But I was there in the exam hall
I thought I was still in Sem 1
I think for about 10 minutes only I realized I tick the wrong semester column

Not to mention about how the exam went..
GIT was kinda terrible

During the so-called 5 hours break before Endocrine paper
Having John & Dinesh together was not bad
At least their brain are bigger & full-er...
Mine was kinda empty & confused..
It was fun although I was totally stressed out...
Haha XD

John even wanna scold me for not teaching him about calcitonin..
I told him about it last minute
Kinda like 3 minutes before we entered the exam hall
Elaine can be my alibi... XD

I was totally going to give up on SLP
Until Elaine came to me telling me about hypercalcemia
I was like, why not just read with her
And make fun of it

That was like so OMG when it appeared in essay
Thanks, Elaine!! =)

There was another OMG when ameobiasis came out in essay for GIT

Conclusion: Both essays are from SLP...!!!
READ SLP 1st next time!!!! *semangat*

Last Thursday was my very 1st time of waking up late for class
I forgotten that I am using my samsung phone
Not Sony...
The alarm rang at 6.10am..
I snoozed...
Bear in my mind that it will wake me up again in 10 minutes
When I opened my eyes feeling satisfied from my sleep

It was so OMG (another attack of OMG)
7.19am!!!!!!!
*Load my mind: Usually, I am already in the bus or waiting the bus at the bus stop by this time*
Jump, Run!!!!!
7.34am, I am at the bus stop...
Feeling proud that I can be super fast as well...

Love.Hate.Moments.

Day 3 had just reached its end
Crossing my fingers everything should be ok..
Burning the midnight oil
Sacrifice my sleep
Torturing my brain
Race against time


Love the part when I searched for my table in the exam hall
Love to have fresh feeling on a new seat everyday
Love to feel the people around me
Love to see how the clock ticks
Love to know the day is passing by
Love to reach my room earlier to catch a nap
Love to know that I went through all these


I used to hate awkward environment
I used to hate hectic moments
I used to hate having people around me when I am serious
I used to hate slow thinking
I used to hate having lack of sleep
I used to hate breathless moments
I used to hate...

Looking for the moment we are set free
Looking for the moment to feel free
Looking for the moment to let go
Looking for the moment to learn new things
Looking for the moment to be in a new group
Looking for the moment how life changes
Looking for the moment in Orchard Parksuites
Looking for the moment of warmth and love
Looking for the moment of 'princess' at home

Finish urinary 1st
Finish MS 1st
Finish OSPE 1st
Finish Exam 1st

I am waiting for it
Waiting for it to be over
To be over and have fun
Have fun and rest my brain
Rest my brain & go for vacation
Go for vacation & play hard
Play hard & enjoy
Enjoy the moment
The moment that I am waiting for
Waiting for it to come to me
Come to me...
Come to me...

*Oh ya, BTW.. Happy 25th Wedding Anniversary to Daddy & Mummy!!

Are we there yet?

Are we there yet?

First, it is the exam... No, we are not there yet..

Second, it is about the notes... No, I am not reaching to the end yet..

It has been my 5th day of study week and hell yeah, I am getting exhausted day by day..
Being cramped in the room for too long with only one aim - Finish the Notes - definitely a boring yet interesting task..

First few days were going good & motivation level in the peak..

Here comes the 5th day, narcolepsy is coming in, joining me in the army of notes war..
Unexpectedly, my appetite getting worst & I am addicted to 'teh ais' @ 'ice milk tea' from the cafe.. It makes me stay awake & give me a hard to shut my eyes in the wee hour when I really need a good sleep..

My countdown still on : 5 days to go on my 5th day of study week..

Because it is study week....

Just because it is study week....

I tend to:

Blog a lot...

Update FB status a lot...

Eat a lot...

Sit a lot...

Daydream a lot...

Doze off a lot...

All due to one reason - I get bored 'a lot'...

Pray hard I can score better.. *PRAY*

EXAM!!!!

Fast & quick - suppose to be the same meaning right? -duh-

Nothing much to say..

Exam starts..

Tissues of Body today....

OK la...

Coming up next: Cellular biomolecule or in BM they spell it as 'biomolekul selular' - so weird, sounds like 'seluar'...

All right.. not much time left.. *tick tock tick tock* - i'm going to FACE it again!!!!

before my first formative assessment

before my first formative assessment

Formative assessment? What's that? A very minor exam taken by us, the UKM medical students after every module.. So, our very 1st formative assessment (a 45 minutes test) is all about Cellular Biomolecules.. It was more about Biochemistry, anyway..

My student card & the 'golden' name tag...


Tada.... My books.. Biochem.. Clinical medicine.. Merck's.. Dorlands..

My preparation :

My way: Study at night.. See there, MILO..

Doing my own short notes... That's UKM pen & Pesta Tanglung papers..


Study on your bed.. (only when my bud is pain enough for sitting too long on the chair)


And the library... With my laptop, information from the Net.. XD