Yada yada

I want to get it all over as soon as possible

But to get rid of these, it needs a lot of sacrifice & courage

My confidence, less than half

It has been easy to see 1/3 of my batch in the posting had done with theirs

But the stories behind were untold

Had been very irresponsible and draggy for the past few days

After knowing my short case will be held only on Thursday

Now it is my turn

The name on top of the list tomorrow

Exactly the first one for the day

The hard-swallowed cocktail of feelings is back

14 months ago, I was shaken for not knowing how short case was done in Internal Medicine

Now, I am shaken because I can imagine the exact situation

Pros, this is no longer the first clinical exam 

Cons, they are kids / newborns! (a plus plus in difficulty level)

Can I choose some courses that have no practical exams and those that I can just laze around the lecture hall? *stupid question*

Self-calming:
The exam session will only take 20 minutes of my life, what's the big deal
*after telling self, calmed for a second, the chill is back after that*
(geez, it is about the time of one short drama series, that's long)

A reminder to self - I have come so far in this journey, look at the steps left in front. It is much shorter than those steps that I have gone through. Believe in what I have got

Yada yada...

Another sleepless night + with the sore throat

*Hope I didn't run around my room with a kettle and pillow*

Love